Working Out

At school atm, on the stationary bike working out don't have time to do weight work out bc of work, dunno how getting all this done. Had to go to storage unit earlier and try to get my stuff out but that was a fail. Had to pay on the united to have lock cut off bc cardo didn't leave keys. Yup thats all for now, object acting odd so I'm stopping

Music, Life, & Medication

Been going through stressful stuff, sure many would say partly my own fault. But its whatever, trying to look on bright side of things. My EDM music sure has helped me a lot. You just get to hear mostly beats, and the sound of that speaks to you, instead of some crappy lyrics someone wrote about drugs, love, lack of love, or money. I would be lost without this music. I cant wait till I can get out of Georgia though, need to get back down to the beach. I used to love waking up to the salt air, and sun. The sight of the water just chilled me out, which makes sense since I am a fire sign lol. Medication....bad, lol. Well, I'm on it. Couldn't sleep last night so took one to help me sleep.....KNOCKED ME OUT! Almost didnt wake up bc of it, lol. Now to take the other med, get ready for the day and see was Ricardo left me in the storage unit.

Year Later

Its almost a year later, and I decided to take a look at this thing again. This past year has been crazy. Many stupid emotional decisions were made, or not made. As a result, I suffered great pain, hurt and depression. I finally reached a point in my life where I could not get past the crazy thoughts myself. So, I am now in counseling and on some anti-anxiety medication. I have realized many things about myself because of it. I have also gone through the second biggest heart break of my life. Swore, it wouldn't happen again, but it did. I want to get myself figured out before I get serious with anyone else. Not even sure, sleeping with anyone at the moment is good for me. I lost myself again, in another relationship. I am 26 years old, need to figure out who I am and gonna be.

My daughter is doing well though. Her red hair, and "just-like-mommy-attitude" is really coming out in her lol. I wouldn't trade a moment of it thought. Thanks goodness I have some good friends still in my life. Without them I would be lost. Oh, and I am in school, and have a job. So its been stressful juggling those and still having time to myself. But thats life. I guess since its 1am I should get off of here and get some sleep.