Let me just say, when I fall for a guy, I fall HARD. And when I fall for a guy I treat him like a king, in return I want to be treated like his queen. I can elaborate on both the king and queen thing if you want. But with this guy I have fallen for right now...I'm feeling all sorts of crazy feelings for him. Back story real quick: Met him in 2002 and dated off and on till I graduated in 2004. He's been after me since and when we were together it was a fairly serious relationship.
So yah, we got together....he broke it off because I went a little obsessive, but our "over" only lasted a week. He says we are on a trial period, but occaisionally ignores my txts and calls, wont let me be friend on facebook, but then talks about us getting a place together, acts like a father to my child. And well shit now I am rambling. But sounds shady huh?
Let me clarify: Idgf if we dont talk all day or everyday...but if I shoot ya a txt with a question please respond in a timely manner, if I call you, please in a timely manner call me back. If you're busy...understandable...when you aren't busy shoot me a txt/call to let me know. Don't just ignore me. Makes me feel like trash and just some girl you sleep with (please no lectures on sleeping with him).
Also being friends on facebook isn't a big deal, it only becomes a big deal when you for shady reasons won't let me be you're friend on there. WHAT ARE YOU HIDING? ARE YOU KEEPING YOUR OPTIONS OPEN? Because if thats the case...tell me you aren't ready and lets end this shit. I hate GAMES!
In person, he's generally great. But is he telling me what I want to hear??? See my trust in men has gone to shit since the sperm donor of my child, (who I loved DEARLY and was supposed to marry) decided to seriously mindfuck me and bruise my heart badly. Want details on that...ask but not putting that here.
Point is, its 1:22am on 4.16.11 and I have the jitters...dont know if its from a monster I drank (doesnt norm happen when I drink em) or if its beginnings of a panic attack. But they started when I started thinking about this current guy. I know I'm crazy...but yah. I don't know what else to say....
I just want a guy who will show/treat me with respect, love me as much as I love them, be honest, not be afraid to say "everyone this is MY girl", etc etc etc.
